a word about pee

lately, whenever harlan awoke from a nap, a long one or a brief one, his right front leg seemed as though it had fallen asleep or was very, very stiff. the baron gingerly massaged this leg, from harlan's shoulder to his foot, testing to see if there were any obvious spots that pained him.

there were not, and yet, the right front leg lameness continued.

the baron was able to get a vet appointment on short notice, and on tuesday of this week she and harlan went to see about his leg. the baron explained about her ginger massages, about how his leg seemed to be asleep, about how once he warmed up everything seemed fine. the doctor performed her exam ("what clean teeth you have, harlan!") and her own ginger massage on his right front leg, with lots and LOTS of stretching. she determined that there was no fracture, that it was most likely a soft tissue injury (read: sprain or bad bruise), that she felt a little arthritis in his wrist, and that she wanted to observe him walking to see just how much he favored his left leg over his right one.

the vet tech removed harlan from the exam table, placed him on the floor, and walked him out of the exam room and to the end of the lobby, for a distance of about 25 feet. the doctor squatted at the other end of the lobby and called harlan, who worked up a pretty good trot to return to her.

but.

he stopped mid-trip to lift his leg against the wall. of the lobby. the baron was embarrassed and surprised, considering that harlan had very recently lifted his leg in the vet's office parking garage, against numerous trees on the way to the vet's office, on the stairs leading to the vet's office front door, and finally on one of the large planters that flanks the vet's office front door. really, thought the baron, how can he have any left?

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a long time ago - three summers, actually - when the baron and the husband had just returned to maryland, their friend laura came to visit. (actually, laura had gamely agreed to accompany the baron and dexter, harlan and tucker on the drive from phoenix to college park, so... less a visit, and more a working vacation.) the baron can't exactly remember the details of the day (was it morning? evening? afternoon?) or the circumstances (had they just arrived from their journey? what day of the week was it?), but she does remember this:

she and laura, standing at the sliding glass door of the in-law apartment they were temporarily renting, watched dexter, harlan and tucker race across the lawn, happy, no doubt, to be out of the car and back onto grass.

at some point, tucker drew their attention. he sidled up to a bush and lifted his leg to pee. he peed. and peed. and peed. and peed. and peed. and laura looked at the baron and said, "no way." tucker was still peeing.

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the baron's mother has a box tortoise, a lovely one, called mr. ninja. the baron, in childhood, thought reptiles were bloodless and personality-less creatures... something about their black eyes and lack of fur.

but.

mr. ninja is awesome. when the baron and the husband would bring the dogs to visit the baron's mother, mr. ninja followed tucker around the baackyard, making his version of tortoise play: nipping at tucker's feet. the game proceeded thusly: tucker jumped up, moved to a comparably comfortable spot, and stretched out on the grass. mr.ninja approached him as stealthily as possible, angling for tucker's feet; once close enough, he reached out for tuft of tucker's foot hair, only to be foiled when tucker spotted him and jumped up. play on repeat.

mr. ninja's dearest dream is to come into the baron's mother's house. if the screen door to the backyard is left open, odds are good that you can find mr. ninja pulling himself up over the threshold and into the kitchen. it's actually quite a sight, since to do so he has to overcome a six-inch step.

once, while visiting, the baron thought she'd help mr. ninja along.

[the brother told her from the outset it was a bad idea, something like, "hey. you better not do that. he'll pee." the baron couldn't see how a tortoise the approximate size of a cereal box could hold that much pee. she waived off his warnings.]

she lifted him into the kitchen, ready to see him tear across the linoleum. instead, he made his slow, steady way about 8 feet into the room and peed. and peed. and peed. and peed.

for a small animal, he let loose what seemed to be a gallon of pee. the liquid radiated out from mr. ninja in a larger and larger and larger puddle, until the baron was roused out of shock to move him back outside.

the brother was vindicated, and could be heard to say, "i told you."

the baron was surprised by the enormity of the puddle... and went to get paper towels.

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the baron is thinking about pee this morning because, frankly reader, she's having a hard time doing it. going pee, that is.

she lately has been waking up once or twice a night with what feels like an unbearably full bladder. in response, obviously, she moves toward the bathroom, but alas! mere splashes fall into the toilet. where, she wonders, is the rest of the pee? because, reader, when she gets up again? gets up from the toilet after having just finished her business? she still feels that her bladder is full.

this troubles her, this issue with peeing. the baron will readily admit that she's not VERY good at VERY many things, but peeing she pretty much mastered around her first birthday.

she's decided that pregnancy is like a gauntlet, and that all these things - the peeing, the nausea, the weight gain, the lost vanity, the gained flatulence, the indigestion, the sleeplessness, the migraines, and the whatever else is coming - are specific and mean hurdles that have to be overcome, unfair and extremely annoying physicalities to bear.

the baron, never one for gauntlets, is just trying to make it through. day to day.

today's word? endure.